So Here's My Life

The things we make,
the food we eat and
the shenanigans in between.

A blog about making things by
MICHELLE SEXTON

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Random Events and Thoughts.

I'm going to try to blog quickly today, because I have an agenda full of things to do today - mainly to continue working through the Photoshop tutorial that my father lent me and to study flash photography. I've been trying to learn as much as possible before the next two weddings in August.

So here's a couple of things that have happened recently, and a couple of things that have been on my mind -
I made these two pictures on photoshop this week for a for a friend of mine's two daughters. They had a birthday party earlier this week, and I didn't have a card to put on their present. So I decided that I would make a card with their picture on it (because they really can't read anyway) and that way they would be able to tell whose present belonged to who. It was a fun photoshop project.

Joel got a sunburn on his head from doing yard work in the backyard last Saturday. It was really horrible. His head actually blistered, and started oozing orange goo from his blisters. (I know you wanted to know that. You're welcome)

I've been doing Yoga for about two months now. I skip the weird meditation part and just do the stretches. I'm really starting to see the results. I really haven't lost any weight, but I have gained a lot of inner strength in my core. I like it.To lose weight, I would have to be doing cardio regularly. For now, I'm just sticking to the yoga.

Recently Joel installed a Nintendo emulator on the Wii and so we've been playing the original Super Mario Bros from like 1985. We've been playing it like every night. I lose frequently, get aggrivated and quit after about half an hour - but it's still a lot of fun. I've also started to play Zelda. I watched my brother play it on the Wii all week when he was visiting last week, and it caught my interest. What is happening to me? I'm turning into the biggest dork ever. I think that being married to a nerd turns you into one. I'm almost convinced.

Two serious thoughts -

I have come to the realization recently that my relationship with God over the past year is not as close to Him as I have been in the past. Reason? Some of you could probably guess. I've allowed certain difficult situations to choke out my love and passion for God. They've distracted me, and deterred my focus - kind of like a weed in the garden - like the weeds that are overwhelming the rest of the plants in my flower beds that I hate to keep up with. I've had so many "weeds" in my life, it's taken a while to pull them out. It was difficult to focus on what's really important because the "weeds" were all that I could see. But now the weeds are becoming more and more sparse. It's good. And I feel like I can finally see. It's been a journey. And once again, I desire to have that deep and intimate relationship with God that I have in the past. And that's what I'm working on again.

Someone told me something last week that really stuck with me. They told me that I have so much potential that I can do great things in my life. You know what? That's not the first time that I've been told that. My husband tells me that all the time (but a lot of times I think that he just says that because he is in love with me...love makes you see things a certain way). I've had music teachers tell me the same. I never know what to do with these comments. To me it seems strange that someone would tell me something like this. My husband gets frustrated when he tells me about my great potential, and I act like I don't believe it. But I began to really think about "The Potential" issue this week. I believe that deep down inside, if I put my mind to something, I can accomplish it. So when I act like I don't believe when a person tells me that, it's not that I do....I think that it's the fact that perhaps I don't see it (my potential)...and even moreso, deep down inside, reaching my full potential scares me. Yes, that is it. I'm scared. But I have no idea why...it sounds ridiculous.

Hmmm...this blog took about 30 minutes to write. Not quite as quick as I would have liked.

1 comment:

Cara Dawn Romero said...

Michelle - I could write an essay on your struggles with the issue of potential but have decided to write a short comment about Joel's sunburn instead...because it makes me laugh (the story - not Joel).

When I was young..maybe 11 years old or so...my mother came up with a scheme for getting hair to grow on my daddy's poor bald head. She had read this artical about mixing up a tonic. I don't remember all the ingrediants but one of them was tomato juice, also beer and another was Tabasco.

Now here's where you have to let yourself get a visualzation of this image...it wasn't enough to have him swab his head with this reddish brew. She made him soak a nylon stocking in it and wrap it around in a spiral on the top of his head...like a snake...and I can remember seeing him sitting in his favorite chair with this bizarre dripping turban on his head calmly smoking his cigarettes and watching Gunsmoke.

The next morning the tonic with
the Tabsco sauce had burnt the skin off of his head. It was so sad and so shocking and sooooo funny all at the same time. Everytime we passed him we experienced that painful "can't laugh in church" choking feeling and would have to run off and laugh behind some closed door. My poor dad...Joel's poor grandfather...ha ha ha!